urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:cedar_trees Stephania Stephania 2009-12-19T17:56:14Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:cedar_trees:64198 2009-12-19T17:56:14Z 2009-12-19T17:56:14Z I hate not knowing and having nothing to do but wait. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:cedar_trees:52154 2008-07-19T14:45:42Z 2008-07-19T14:45:42Z I had a dream I did acid, but it came from a sea animal and looked like Pepto bismal or whatever the pink medicine is called.<br />I guess licking paper is a thing of the past and drinking pink shit is the now.<br />Weird ass dream. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:cedar_trees:16442 2007-08-10T09:36:12Z 2007-08-10T09:36:12Z The past few days have been amazing, catching up with old friends and getting closer to old ones, I was feeling pretty good.<br />Rj and I had planned on going to farmers, but things came up and we didn't make it.<br />Bailey called me saying she wanted to hang out and so did Todd, so Rj and I picked them, I drove.<br />We spend 15 minutes or so driving around trying to think of something to do and we end up at Boomers for mini golf, it's about 9 pm.<br />Putt putt was so much fun, we were all messing around with each other and laughing.<br />I came in second place, what can I say I'm a pretty good putt putter.<br />We make our way inside and play a few video games, when they get turned off at 10 pm we walk outside to my car.<br />What do you know, my front passenger window is smashed in and my windshield has a huge web crack.<br />We try calling 911 for like 10 minutes and we can't get through so I call Spiro, my brother, to call for us.<br />While we wait for the police to show up we check everything out and see what was missing.<br />Bailey and I left our purses in the back seat and luckily they were both there with nothing gone, however my iPod, iPod adapter, necklace, and five empty packs of cigarettes were all taken from my car.<br />They threw a huge rock the break both windows and it ended up denting my car, scratching up my dashboard, and then was left on the front passenger side floor.<br />When the cop got there he was cracking jokes with all of us and laughing along to the ridiculous things we were talking about, he was a pretty nice guy.<br />I took everyone to Rjs house so he could give them a ride home and I got home around 11 pm.<br />I dropped off my car and realized how much more this sucks than last summer when I got my tires slashed.<br />Oh well, Rj came and picked me up just after I was done talking to my parents and cheered me up a little.<br />I would think I'd be more upset about this than I am, but there really isn't a need to be.<br />I mean it already happened and it's just material things that can all be replaced so there is no need to be so upset about it.<br />My things are not the world to me, my friends and family are.<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />Good night. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:cedar_trees:15657 2007-08-03T05:22:04Z 2007-08-03T05:22:04Z Too much time to think, too much time to miss.<br />I'm noticing more and more how much of a fucking retard I am.<br />Keep busy, keep your mind on what you're learning and reading.<br />Find out if you are like them, this is could be something good.<br />Just keep focused, push it all away and pull what's at hand a little closer.<br />Remember to keep your chin up, eyes forward, ears listening, and your mind open.<br />Most importantly never give up.<br /><br /><br /><br />I'm a new person, and I'm better than I used to be. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:cedar_trees:15432 2007-08-02T21:54:13Z 2007-08-02T21:54:13Z Wow is my cousin's town different than Santa Maria or anywhere near it.<br />It was a but of a shock since I've never been here before.<br />Across the street from her house is a slaughter house, number eight... She may have been joking when she said that.<br />There's a Walmart Super Store, which is also the grocery store, a couple mini marts and gas stations, one cafe, and a movie theater with like four theaters. <br />Everyone stares and the guys, even older ones, whistle and wave as they drive past it's disgusting.<br />It's like they've never seen a girl before, once again I thought my cousin was joking.<br />Anyways we are going to Garden of the Gods and Cave of Wind or something and then going hiking and into Denver.<br />I'm excited for the weekend, but I'm bored and already sat at a cafe all day so I think I'm going to call Tyler and hopefully he won't be busy so I'll have some social contact.<br />It might be awkward since I just met him last night, oh well I have to stop being shy at some point in life.<br />I'll be enjoying the hot days and warm nights.<br />= D urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:cedar_trees:15245 2007-08-01T01:54:31Z 2007-08-01T01:54:31Z Nickel Creek Do you ever wonder what if?<br />What if I did that different or not at all?<br />What would the out come be?<br />The past few days those questions keep coming back to me and I don't know why.<br />It's starting to get at me, you're starting to get to me again.<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />Good bye tomorrow California and hello to Colorado. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:cedar_trees:15006 2007-07-28T07:30:03Z 2007-07-28T07:30:03Z Chin Up Chin Up I got my new tattoo today.<br />It was pretty sweet to get it done a friends house.<br />I'm so glad Brandon did it for me because it was way more relaxed and comfortable.<br />He was cracking jokes the entire time about how he messed up or colored the star the wrong color and about how dorky we were a few years back when we hung out all the time.<br />The stars are pretty basic, but definitely unique because they aren't perfect and I like that because not only were they drawn free hand, but it also stands for how imperfect the relationships between me and my brother and sister are.<br />It's not quite done yet, the outline needs to be thicker and I'm thinking about adding a little more behind them.<br />I'm liking the shoulder blade thing too, it hurt a lot less than my hip did.<br /><br /><br /><br /><br />Recently I've reconnected with a lot of people from my past, not just Brandon.<br />It's really nice getting to know them all over again and spending time with different people.<br />I've been wondering how I ever lost contact with so many amazing and different people than I am.<br />Things are slowly starting to pick up and I feel like I'm becoming the person I want to be.<br />The sad thing is I've hurt and lost people who helped shape who I am and I miss them dearly.<br />Come back to me and make things right again.<br />I love you all. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:cedar_trees:14367 2007-07-26T07:39:41Z 2007-07-26T07:39:41Z Mae Ouch, that was unexpected.<br />It hurts, it hurts.<br />Keep breathing and keep that chin up. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:cedar_trees:14294 2007-07-25T08:05:54Z 2007-07-25T08:05:54Z Dashboard Getting ink on Friday...for free, but I'm still going to pay.<br />I love having tattoo artists as old friends.<br />Glad to have you back Brandon, you've been away for too long. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:cedar_trees:13912 2007-07-23T06:36:51Z 2007-07-23T06:36:51Z Driving home half drunk in the fog by yourself from Lompoc is not a smart idea.<br />At least I didn't die or get pulled over.<br />I have to say it was so worth it.<br />Tonight was so much chilling with the girls from high school.<br />We all looked so skanky and have photos to prove it... not to mention the lip stick kiss on my neck from Tori.<br />Amazing night. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:cedar_trees:13668 2007-07-22T07:33:21Z 2007-07-22T07:33:21Z Jimmy Eat World I hate that my mouth runs off and gets me into a mess.<br />FUCKKKKKK.<br />Whatever. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:cedar_trees:13556 2007-07-18T00:36:04Z 2007-07-18T00:36:04Z Nickel Creek I don't even remember writing my last two entries.<br />I'm not going to Colorado in 20 days it's more like two weeks.<br />Hopefully my cousin will be down to go see Nickel Creek while I'm there.<br />I'm stoked thinking about it. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:cedar_trees:13246 2007-07-17T07:12:53Z 2007-07-17T07:12:53Z Take me with you on your journey to the heavens above.<br />Let us hold hands and soar the blue sky until black.<br />Follow the angels to the seat of the Lord and bow at his feet.<br />Kiss softly beneath the tree of truth and know this is real.<br />Hug sweetly before falling into a cloud.<br />Take me where ever your feet will glide across slick ice.<br />And run through a forest of cedar trees with sparrows singing.<br />Dance through the stars until every song created seems old.<br />Smile to the point that our faces are permanent and perfect.<br />That is what we shall be, doll faces with true meaning in our happiness. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:cedar_trees:12878 2007-07-17T06:54:07Z 2007-07-17T06:54:07Z Ivory I bought a dress.<br />Yes me..in a dress...willingly.<br />It's super cute too.<br />Where should I wear it though?<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />Haha you wish you were as cool as me.<br />Colorado count down... 20 days.<br />Palm Springs count down... 8 days.<br /><br /><br /><br />I love summer.<br />Missing a few cool cats, we should fix that. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:cedar_trees:12699 2007-07-14T06:50:37Z 2007-07-14T06:50:37Z Let's Go Hahah oh Stephania the situations you get yourself in to. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:cedar_trees:12415 2007-07-12T07:41:12Z 2007-07-12T07:41:12Z Led Zeppelin So I was in Long Beach today and I was sitting in my moms car for over an hour so I put my legs out the window to try and tan them and a little lady bug landed on my toes.<br />It tickled so I tried to make it fly away, but when it did it landed on my knee.<br />I think the little lady liked me.<br />Anyways whoever said that lady bugs bring good luck was totally right.<br />We got to SLO a late, but didn't miss anything exciting.<br />I met a couple new people..Andrew and Kenny..who were actually really cool.<br />I helped Brandon break into his own car because he left his keys inside.<br />Seth and I had a long talk about everything and it's all in perspective now.<br />I didn't watch Briertone, who likes them anyways, but Blesk was amazing as always.<br />The drive back was nice because I was alone and got to thinking and singing along to the CD Seth left in my car.<br />All in all today was a good day, I really needed it.<br />Palm Springs for a few days next week and I get to see Adam, hopefully, while I'm down there.<br />I'm out for a while, though.<br />Good night. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:cedar_trees:11528 2007-07-08T14:24:14Z 2007-07-08T14:24:14Z Yep it's true once again.<br />Yet for some reason I thought it would be different this time.<br /><br /><br /><br /><br />Is it Decemeber yet? urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:cedar_trees:11283 2007-07-07T07:18:37Z 2007-07-07T07:18:37Z I can't sleep and I'm not okay.<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />I hate myself. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:cedar_trees:10900 2007-07-04T06:10:05Z 2007-07-04T06:10:05Z Decision made. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:cedar_trees:10627 2007-07-02T02:16:36Z 2007-07-02T02:16:36Z Something Corporate What to do, what to do?<br />So many choices, so little time.<br />Ughhh. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:cedar_trees:10304 2007-06-30T19:04:02Z 2007-06-30T19:04:02Z Oh how things just keep getting better. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:cedar_trees:10221 2007-06-28T17:52:19Z 2007-06-28T17:52:19Z Mae My world is about to crumble and I'm the one with the wrecking ball. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:cedar_trees:9757 2007-06-25T21:02:17Z 2007-06-25T21:02:17Z Oops.<br />= ( urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:cedar_trees:9723 2007-06-21T16:48:36Z 2007-06-21T16:48:36Z It's starting again.<br />I apologize, I can't help it. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:cedar_trees:9061 2007-06-11T00:47:24Z 2007-06-11T00:47:24Z Gary Jules I really just wish you would grow up and realize that not everything is about you.<br />There are other people in this world who have their own lives.<br />Their lives do NOT revolve around you or your life, get over it.<br /><br /><br /><br />My mom goes to for surgery Tuesday morning.<br />Please keep her in your thoughts..and that I don't destroy the business.<br />Good bye social life, hello Orcutt Burgers.